This time for good or bad

I broke up with Anna yesterday. This time for good.

I feel sad now, this last week has not been easy. For the longest time I've been on an emotional roller coaster in our relationship. I just had to get off.

It's weird. For once I have something actually worth writing--and now I can't write. It just feels to empty. I can't seem to see the sentences, the words just run together. What to write?

For the last week I've been in a daze emotionally. I really haven't known what I feel. Or I've felt too many conflicting feelings. I've torn myself in every direction. I've experienced some kind of super-charged manic-depressive symptoms and the first panic attack of my life.

I don't know... I know that I'll feel alright, that everything'll be okay. Right now I'm just hurt and confused.

---